Irrationally Hating Bubba

I hate you…in an irrational way that makes me seem a little crazy…you are so much more than a mode of transportation…

You make me remember one of the worst times in my life…you were used to cause aggravation and pain…you are a last reminder of a time in my life that I want to be shed of…

And yet, you are none of those things, because I’m only projecting my own issues onto you…

You scare me because I don’t trust you…you embarass me because you’re not anything I would ever drive…you stress me out…

But you don’t really do any of that either…that’s me again…

Knowing that my hatred is irrational doesn’t change it…it doesn’t even come close…I accept that it’s insane…I embrace it a little…I get angry because I know my life won’t immediately be better when I kick you to the curb, but I want to believe a weight will lift….

When I am lucky enough to forget about you for a few days, I hope a miracle will happen and I’ll be able to forget about you forever…driving something else feels like freedom…like a weight has lifted…like flying…

When I am forced to admit that life doesn’t work that way and I take you back, I feel the weight drop back on my shoulders…heavier than before…and all I can think about is how much I hate you…yeah, it’s not rational…it might not even be sane…and it definitely isn’t healthy…but Bubba, I hate you…and I will not shed a tear when you go…

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About Michaela Mitchell

A few things come to mind easily when I think of myself - a mom, a friend, a daughter, a hard-worker. But there's so much more to me - and I just have to discover what it is.

Posted on January 23, 2012, in Random and tagged , , , , , . Bookmark the permalink. Leave a comment.

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