My Pride vs. My Dignity

Sometimes I get confused between my pride and my dignity…my pride gets in the way – a lot.

I don’t seek out help when I need it most…because I’ve convinced myself that I shouldn’t need help…I’m 32…I’m a college graduate…I’ve got a decent job, hell I have a career, not just a job…

What the hell does that matter, though?

I had to drop my pride this week, so that I could retain my dignity…it was hard…it was emotionally draining…it was exhausting…and unfortunately, it was necessary…

What is dignified about running to family every few weeks begging for help? What’s dignified about failing to properly take care of my boys? Not a damn thing…

Sometimes I have to remind myself that the only thing that matters is raising good boys into good men…and I will do whatever is necessary to make that happen…pride be damned…

As hard as it has been, my pride is on the ground, temporarily forgotten…but my dignity has been preserved…

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About Michaela Mitchell

A few things come to mind easily when I think of myself - a mom, a friend, a daughter, a hard-worker. But there's so much more to me - and I just have to discover what it is.

Posted on February 9, 2012, in Independent Michaela and tagged , , , , , , , . Bookmark the permalink. 3 Comments.

  1. But while dropping your pride you’re also learning to be humble and (BIG GULP) ask for help which IS important to be able to do!I’m glad you have the support system of your family around to help.Figuring out the single mom thing is not an easy task!

    Also big hugs from me to you and a great big thank you for yesterday!

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