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I’m Just Happy

I feel like the luckiest woman on the planet, right now…and I’m not sure what I did to deserve it…

No, I didn’t win the Lotto…but I feel like I did…

Plans I put into place are coming together…things are working out the way I had hoped…is this proof that I can make good decisions, that I know what I’m doing?

I feel like I can breathe…I feel light as air…I feel like it’s ok to hope and dream again…

Why now? Why me and not someone else?

No, I’m not complaining…and I’m not trying to jinx myself…and I know there’s no good answer to my questions…

It just feels so out of the blue…

The results of my good fortune are already being felt…I’m becoming less self-involved (finally)…I have room in my head, heart, and world to focus on the people who matter…

Ironically, it would be better to feel this way when things aren’t going well, but that’s hard to do…

The surprising part about feeling so good is that I want to spread that feeling…I want others to feel as wonderful as I do…I want to share my joy…

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You know what I like the best about this picture? I look happy…not for any particular reason…just because…

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Karma and Choices

Ever since I started this blog (yeah, I know it’s only been 3 days), I’m filled with ideas of what to write about next.

This morning, I was mentally writing this post while driving down the road…it was all sunshine and laughing babies – ok more like Pitbill and Black Eyed Peas – but you get my point.

This afternoon?  Not so much.

I was given a very clear reminder about Karma. Karma can be your friend…or your worst enemy.   

My philosophy in life is to do what’s right…even if, and especially when, it’s hard.  In recent weeks, I’ve done things that my family and close friends would say I’m crazy to do.  But my gut tells me it was the right thing to do.   

Being repaid today by being called selfish was hard to swallow.  And when an emergency came up and I was the only one with a solution and an offer to help, it was tempting to take the easy road, and say, “Oh hell no, asshole.”  But you do what’s right even when it’s hard…

By the end of the day, I certainly wasn’t thinking of sunshine and babies anymore…I was thinking about Karma.  Is my Karma good?  Is that why it feels like nothing too serious is happening?  Or am I just handling life better so what I would have once considered a crisis is no big deal?  Is it his negativity that’s holding him back?  Is it as simple as making the right choices? Does he just have bad Karma?

And then, like a little ray of light, I heard Aidan reading his new book (gotta love those money fairies that slip $5 in your backpack for the Book Fair), sounding out the words, and proclaiming it “his FAVORITE book.”  At that moment all those questions in my head seemed meaningless.  There are so many more important things in life…and they deserve to be celebrated.

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