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Happy Mother’s Day

I wasn’t going to do the obligatory Mother’s Day post…but I changed my mind…

Mama and The Step came to visit on Saturday and we celebrated Mother’s Day with dinner…dinner with two cranky little boys – of course…

I sort of slept in today…on the couch and I could hear the boys when they woke up and rushed in to see their grandparents…I smiled a little because I was glad it wasn’t me…

I tried to keep sleeping even after everyone came downstairs – be shocked, but it wasn’t possible…

I had the luxury of an uninterrupted shower…and I took advantage of that by staying in the shower for probably 30 minutes, water bill be damned!

By 10am, they were on the road and we were back to normal…except I felt lonely and Sean cried because he hates when his grandparents leave…

I made the mistake of mentioning on Facebook that all I really wanted for Mother’s Day was a day with no meltdowns…I should have known better…Sean had three or four little mini-tantrums…yay.

Aidan surprised me with a handmade card…It had six “x’s” and six “o’s” – Aidan pointed out all the hugs and kisses…the inside was the best part – “You’re the best mom ever. You’ve done great work for me.” All together now, “Awwwwww….” He really is a sweet boy…

I lost an hour somewhere in the day…at one point, I thought it was 6:30pm, and it was really 7:30, and I rushed to get the boys their bath and in bed…

I’m getting ready to go out of town for a week for work…made the gray hair go away, packed (mostly), painted my nails…you know, the important stuff…

So, there you have it…Happy Mother’s Day – to me and all the moms out there in the world…

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Am I Really THAT Girl?

I realized today that I’m one of those women that men complain talk about when they say women say yes when they mean no…damn it…

For whatever reason, Mother’s Day has been on my mind a lot…there’s very little I can do for my own mom, but I will do everything I can to make sure she knows she’s loved and appreciated…the boys will do whatever projects the school/daycare offers and it will be very sweet…

But I haven’t been able to stop thinking about how The Ex (before he was The Ex) never made any holiday a priority, and especially not Mother’s Day…there were never gifts…there were never projects with the boys to help them make or do something…we didn’t have a lot of money, so sometimes, when I decided to make it clear I wanted something, I would ask for a clean house or dinner – guess how that went…no, go ahead…

And then I remind myself that I’m the one who, when asked, will tell people I don’t need a gift…don’t bother…don’t go to the expense…it’s not important…you name it…and in the moment, when I say that, I really do mean it…because I don’t think I’m worth the extra expense…I know how hard it is to hold onto money, so when asked, I will always demur and say no…

But, I don’t think I really mean it…I do want someone to think that the occasion is special enough that I deserve something…except deserve sounds so damn selfish…I want someone to disregard the no gift is necessary thing…ignore me and get me something anyway…except how can I expect someone to read my mind? And I really don’t like to be ignored…

The fact that I miss something I’ve never had seems to be my own fault…and I’m own worst enemy…

I can hear the advice now…but I don’t think this is just about me being able to ask for what I want…I think it’s also a matter of believing it’s ok for someone to spend money on me, to give me something I didn’t necessarily earn…

Why I’m preoccupied with this now that I’m single and it doesn’t matter, I don’t know…chalk that up to another confusing thing about women, I guess…

Mother’s Day 2011 – Doin’ It Our Way

There was no breakfast in bed, flowers, chocolates, and whatever else some mother’s are treated to for Mother’s Day.  Sleeping in consisted of getting up at 7:45 a.m., breakfast was an omelet I made for myself, and if I want chocolate, well…we still have Easter candy.

I never had any of that so I certainly don’t miss it.  I don’t need the trappings of a “typical” Mother’s Day…today I had the best Mother’s Day I’ve ever had. 

My mom is in town to watch the boys while I go out of town for work (I am a lucky, lucky woman!).  We decided to take the boys to the zoo and then out to eat.  We had a blast!  Almost Ex and I have taken Aidan to the zoo before but he was young and didn’t really get into it.  Now that he’s older, it was awesome!  He wanted to look at and touch everything.  (Sean is still at that age where he’s just a looky-loo.)

Aidan requested Red Lobster for lunch…and then ate NOTHING but chips and half a biscuit.  That’s my picky eater!

The best part of the whole day wasn’t until we came home.  Watching my mother rolling around on the floor with her grandbabies was amazing.  She didn’t have that luxury with me when I was a kid.  And I know she loves every minute of it now.

I know that there a million and one amazing reasons to be a mom, but today, I feel like the best Mother’s Day present I ever gave my mom was grandkids…she was lighthearted and goofy with them and it was amazing to watch.

It was very nice to have a day without the stress and craziness of a divorce weighing on my mind.  Yeah, it’s still there but it was the least important thing in the world.

This is what’s important:

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